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| January 2007 I wrote livejournal entries. The quotes that follow are from that month...
I went into Gamestop today to see if they had DS's yet. The cute guy in there knows why I come in now...
I'm SMITTEN with the Gamestop boy. I'm officially old because I think he's super cute because of his beard. That's right gals and guys. I officially am attracted to bearded men. But he has red hair and glasses and a beard. And he's SO cute. I go to gamestop like every day just to see him. Maybe some day I'll get up the nerve to talk to him.... :)
I'm still smitten with the Gamestop boy. He wasn't in there today when I drove by. Rhiannon told me I should just go in there and ask him out. Of course I could never do that being the self-conscious psycho I am. I shall continue to stalk him, spending lots of money in the meantime... :-\ Maybe he'll talk to me next time I go in there..... I'm fairly certain his name is Aaron.
Another thing. I need to quit being a chicken. I need to stop fantasizing about what could be and just go talk to that boy. I mean, all he can do is laugh at me and I'll have to stop going in that store.... I think I can handle that. And he could say yes. Then I'd have a super cute boyfriend....
They asked about the Gamestop boy. He said I was "all smiley and bubbly" and that I was "totally smitten by this guy". Which is true. I am. I mean, I've never talked to the boy except about Yoshi Island the other day. And he makes me smile. Am I ridiculous? Yes. But I can't help it. That's who I am. Who doen't get smitten over super cute boys??
I talked to him.
First, about the Lord of the Rings games. Thanks to my best roommate's suggestion. Then after wandering in the store while he helped other people, I decided to buy one since it was $5. I got my card out and was swiping it and putting in my pin # and he looked at my wallet and saw my FSU card, which is still in the front window. And he said "You go to FSU?" and i said "No, I did. I graduated in April" and he said "Oh that's cool" and I said something along the lines of "yeah.. now I'm a loser who has a physics degree and does nothing with it." and I saw his ears perk up. Actually, his facial expression changed to one of interest. So, that was fun.
I'm gonna keep going back in there until he's my friend.
I stopped by Gamestop today after work. Didn't even come home first, since I looked SO cute. I hadn't been in there since Wednesday. Aaron was there. And the other guy in the store went on break as soon as I got there. So it was just me and him. And we talked for a good 10 minutes about silly things. He's so fucking cute it makes me want to scratch myself. hahaha I know that sounds crazy. But he makes me want to dig my nails into my arms. To keep all the silly girly feelings inside. He told me he liked my astronaut lego man keychain.
Then one from October:
spending the entire night (we're talking late afternoon till 2 am) watching movies, cuddling on the couch, and holding hands with the cutest boy in the world.
Yesterday was perfect. <3
I like him so very much.
Its funny to look back at those entries. It blows my mind that over the past 2 years Cute Gamestop boy evolved from Cute Gamestop Boy to my friend Aaron to my boyfriend Aaron to my very best friend and fiance and in 11 short days I'll be his wife. Its absolutely mindblowing to me. So many of you commented on here that I just had to go for it. I had no self-confidence back then. I weighed in at a whopping 250lbs and hated myself. Surely no boy would ever like me. But somehow, everything worked out and in 11 days he's going to marry me.
I'm still slightly confused as to how this all came about. I can't remember what I used to do before I had Aaron in my life. I spend every ounce of free time I have with him. He's my very best friend. my confidant. My advisor. My lover. I absolutely cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him. Forever wouldn't be enough time...
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| Does anyone have any feelings about the NuvaRing? Pros or cons?
After yet another failed birth control pill attempt at keeping my PCOS in check, the gyno wants to try that and I'm very iffy about it. First of all, I don't know what it feels like inside. Also, I dont know any of the side effects or anything. I've read on the web. But I dunno....
soooo anyone? | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| So, I've recently (in my never ending idea/inspiration quest) stumbled on a website called Weddingbees.
This site has made me vomit in my mouth. Basically what it is is a bunch of snobby women blogging about planning their weddings. Gushing about how much money they are spending and how the napkins on the table aren't the right shade of eggplant ecru. Talking about they're overly expensive engagement rings. It literally makes me sick.
I've been engaged 7 months now. During those 7 months I've been back and forth on the whole wedding issue. I didn't really want a wedding for a while, then I felt bad not having one, so I was going to have a small wedding. I'm content with the way things are shaping up. We invited somewhere between 170-200 people. Most of them so far, coming. The chapel only holds 150. Most brides, might freak out. Me. Screw em. I don't care if people come or not. The ONLY thing that matters to me is that on that day, Aaron and I will be married. I don't care about napkin rings. I don't care about favors (anyone that reads this that IS coming to my wedding, you aren't getting any. get over it.). I don't care about food. I don't care about flowers. I feel like I'm going through all these motions for everyone else's entertainment. All I care about is on that day, Aaron and I will promise to love each other forever. Again. We've already done it. This time, it'll just be in front of some people and I'll be wearing a big heavy dress.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm not all girly. Every girl dreams of her wedding day, right? The perfect day. The veil (ick...). The big fluffy white dress. The giant sparkly diamond. I'm a simple girl. I like my ring. Its very shiny. But its not overly ostentatious. I don't really know where I was going with this whole rant. I just saw that website and it made me angry. Maybe if those women spent more time picking out a husband than napkin colors, half our marriages wouldn't end in divorce... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I am dying of the plague. Well, not so much dying today as I just have the worst sore throat ever. I managed to stay away from home all week last week. Allison stayed home from school everyday. I stayed at Aaron's as much as I possibly could. But, sadly it finally caught up with me. It started Friday with a headache. Saturday progressed to sore achy muscles everywhere. Sunday morning I awoke to an annoying cough. Then it was all downhill from there. I got progressively worse as Sunday wore on. Yesterday I slept most of the day. I felt like I was hit by a truck. Aaron brought me chicken soup and some medicine then I sent him away. Today I'm feeling almost normal. I'm not sore anymore. The fever is gone. I have the worst sore throat ever. Other than that, I'm ok. I'm going to try work tomorrow. Its early release, so I'm going to try to make it till at least 1. If I don't make it to the meetings, I don't care. They're just a big waste of time anyways... My chest hurts from coughing so much. I've been having horrible restless sleep. I toss and turn and have weird dreams all night. Its so silly how we take things for granted till a silly little cold/flu takes it away from us.
Yesterday I couldn't get warm. I stayed in the shower with no cold water on when I wasn't sleeping. It helped me breathe and helped my muscles, but it didn't warm me up. Aaron came over around 6 and woke me up. I was drenched in sweat. So, I guess that's when my fever broke. I was literally soaked in sweat. The shirt I was wearing was sopping wet. it was so gross.
Today I've managed to stay awake, I slept until about 11. Then I only took one shower. I'm not under a blanket right now. So, I think I'm making progress towards being better. I just need this stupid cough/sore throat to go away...
Blah. I hate being sick. I never get sick. But when I do it rapes me. Up the butt. With no lube.
I just want to add as a sidenote here:
I seriously loathe the Duggar Family. Everytime I see them on tv, i cannot stop myself from making snide comments to the screen. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I finished reading The Watchmen tonight. It was really good. I'm sad it took me so long to get into it. Its a very deep book. The more I think about it, the better it is.
Aaron is having to work late tonight. I met him at the Town Center to have dinner. Neither of us were really hungry though. We went to the Apple Store instead. I learned that the new macbooks don't have an integrated videocard. SOOOOOO I need to get one of those to play Warcraft better.
Tomorrow is a stupid planning day. I hate planning days. They're good because there are no kids. But I always feel so lazy and end up wasting the whole day. I do have Science Fair project to grade tomorrow. UGH.
I can't believe this year is already halfway over.
I got a new pillow Tuesday. its my new favorite thing. Aaron got a 3 inch thick memory foam pad. We blew up the sleep number bed all the way. With those adjustments OH MY GOD. Its a could of heaven. Its so comfy! My pillow is also memory foam. It weighs about 10-15 pounds. I slept like a log both nights I've had it. I can't wait for the weekend so i can test the bed and the pillow together!
My other goals for the weekend are:
Sleep for more that 7 hours in a row
Get level 63
Run an Outlands instance
Go to church (I dont think I've been yet in 2009... :-/ oh wells)
Pay my Guild Corporal back the gold he lent me.
Awww most of my goals are WoW related... I'm a dork. Oh well. I'm excited to be in the Outlands!! | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
| So, I've read in a few journals and even stumbled on a few other blogs about this 101 things in 1001 days. I'm very much intrigued... It may take me a while to compile a list... Maybe that's something I should put on my list.
1. Finish this list
:) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So, I was at the doctor for an abnormally long time today (Check up appointment. My giant right ovarian cyst has disappeared and the really giant 5cm on on my left ovary is half the size. So, yay. I still need to do better diet wise.)
But anyways, I spent my time waiting reading the Watchmen. its so good. Aaron's been trying to make me read it forever, but i just couldn't get into it until we saw the trailer Saturday before Gran Turino.
http://watchmenmovie.warnerbros.com/
It looks so effing good. I'm excited for March :) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| There's been a lot going on lately. I just haven't been at all in the mood to update anything.
Work is ok... I've been having to be a lot more strict lately. 9th graders were getting out of control and I just can't handle that. So, I made a new list of rules and I've been ruling with an iron fist. Its kind of a power trip. I like it.
I haven't been doing much planning for the wedding. I have pretty much settled myself with the beach BBQ idea at Hanna Park. I want a dusk wedding on the beach, then a party at Dolphin Plaza with hot dogs and hamburgers and dancing in the sand. I think it'll be awesome!! I've got all kinds of ideas in my head. I just need to start making them a reality.
In other news, Aaron got a promotion Friday. He's the manager at Neptune Beach now. I'm a little sad because I can't just pop in for a hug and kiss anymore. And he'll be working a lot more. Especially until after Christmas. But, he works on the Southside now, so we're going to look for a house there now. It'll be closer for both of us since we both work over there now. He got a significant raise. Almost twice as much as he was making. With out salaries combined, we'll be bringing in about 70k a year. Which for a newlywed mid twenties couple, I think is freaking awesome. We went out last night to celebrate. We were judges for the Chili Cook Off at his mom's church. Then we went to Chick-Fil-A and American Signature. We looked at all kinds of furniture and I got all kinds of excited. I feel like my life is starting to take off. I finally feel like a grown up.
Anyways, that's pretty much all I've got right now. I'm very excited for the holidays. And I'm excited that its been so cold so early. This week, the high has been in the 50s. THE HIGH! With frost warning every night. It was 27 last night when Aaron brought me home. 27!! In Florida!
After Christmas we're going to head up to the mountains. Aaron has never seen it actually snow. We were going to go this week, but when he told me that he's never seen snow fall, I decided just going to see it on the ground was good enough. So that's fun.
Hopefully I'll feel like updating a little more often now... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So, as you can see from my last post, I am now officially betrothed to my sweet Aaron.
He asked me today at 4:30. He had been working all day. He came over this morning and kissed me. Then went to work, or so I assumed. He actually went to pay for my ring.
He came to my house after work and he had a Happy Meal. He came over to where I was playing Warcraft and said "I got you a Happy Meal. Its only a 4 piece because I didn't know if you were hungry" I thought that was weird but I didn't think anything of it and kept playing. He was SO insistent that I open the box and see what toy was in there. So I was like why don't you open it? I'm not remotely hungry.
After a few minutes, I realized something was going on. So I grabbed the box and went to the other room. I opened it and inside on top was a ring box. He got down on one knee and he said "Amy will you marry me??" I was frozen with emotion when I saw the ring. But then as soon as the words came out of his mouth, I started to smile (it hasn't gone away yet...) and said yes. Then he stood up and hugged me. And kissed me. Then I asked him to put the ring on my finger.
Its a gorgeous ring. It sparkles so much in the sunlight. I thought it was beautiful inside. But when we went outside, it actually took my breath away. I love it. Its an oval in the middle. With two tear drops on the side. I love it.
I'm so excited. Aaron is out of control excited. Its looking like May 23rd will be the day. Its all so surreal. I don't have a boyfriend anymore. I have a fiancee... hehehehehe | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I had something to post.... But I have no idea what it was....
.... I hate it when that happens. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So, the majority of the storm has passed over. Its still raining and really gusty outside, but no where near as bad as last night.
Our power went out pretty much all night last night. Luckily, I was at Aaron's (they closed his store around 4 and let them all go home). Aaron's family has a generator. So, we continued to play Warcraft until the internet went down. After that we watched Wedding Crashers. He brought me home around 1 because I didn't want to make him sleep on the futon. His mom said I was more than welcome to stay. I just feel bad kicking him out of his bed. But, when I got out of his car, I got stuck in the biggest gust of wind. It was so hard to move. It felt like it was seriously around 40-45mph.
I'm obviously not at work again. They kept school closed today. The bridges are all closed still due to gusty winds. So, I couldn't have gone anyway.
Our backyard is a tree branch graveyard. 2 seperate branches fell and busted my dad's tables. One that he made and another was made of glass and is shattered. Our front yard looks like a pond. Luckily, the big pond isn't flooding over, so I'm sure that Sniff is ok.
All in all, I've had fun with Fay. She's really been no worse than a bad thunderstorm. Except no lightning and thunder... lol as I typed that it started pouring buckets again. Silly Fay... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I know I've been talking big a long time about buying a house and getting out of my parent's hair. Its just a big scary step that I don't really want to take by myself. But, Aaron's mom has told me about all the different home buying assistance programs in the state.
Then last week, my mom found this house while she was doing her morning real estate browsing...
http://www.realtor.com/search/listingdetail.aspx?zp=32218&mxp=16&typ=7&sid=1a0b11a9ae884585ac8539949002cbb8&pg=3&lid=1102110111&lsn=29&srcnt=50#Detail
After this hurricane passes, I'm going to give the realtor a call and see if I can go look at it. Because that house is CHEAP. They're old houses, but most in that neighborhood run 150k+. I think it doesn't have a bathroom... or something. SOMETHING is wrong... I just wanted to share. Cause I'm kinda excited! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | The first two days of school went remarkably well. Now, we have tomorrow and Thursday off for sure. Possibly Friday depending on where and when Fay hits... Welcome back to school I guess :) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I have successfully completed my first week back to work. I can not believe this is my THIRD year at Sandalwood. In our Science Dept meeting yesterday we went around and introduced ourselves because about half the science people left after last year. I said it was my third year and I was like dang. Where did 2 years go already??
But, I'm excited. This is the first year I actually feel completely ready for the first day of school. My classroom is semi-ready. Its all clean and everything I have is on the walls, but I have a few more ideas I'll just have to do on my planning period. Especially my inflatable solar system that's coming!! The Sun is 38" in diameter. So, they'll look SO awesome hanging from my ceiling!
( Look here for pics of my classroom as of yesterday!! )
Aaron and I had a rough night Thursday. We went to Walmart for juice around 10 and somehow got on the subject of kids. And once again, since his back is really been hurting this week (he did something Wednesday and thinks he hurt something new), he says he doesnt want kids. And I told him I won't be happy unless I do. So, then there was a long 30 minutes of silence when we got back to his house where I cried a lot and he said he cried a little, because we were both terrified the other was going to end things. When he realized it was 11:30, he tried to get me to go home, and I started crying hysterically. He asked what was wrong and I said "I don't want to leave because I'm terrified I'll never come back". He laughed at me, gave me the tightest hug ever and promised me "You'll see me tomorrow. You'll kiss me tomorrow. And we'll exchange I love you's tomorrow". It was a rough night. Still no resolution. But, I really am convinced that its only his back talking. He only says he doesn't want kids when he's been hurting a lot. Because he thinks he can't take care of himself, he can't take care of a kid. Which I understand. So, for those of you that pray, please pray for him. He had an epidural Monday into his herniated disc and he felt completely fine on Tuesday. Then Wednesday hurt himself again at work. I get so frustrated because I don't know what to do to fix him. So, please pray.
Other than that, life is as usual. I'm ready for the first day on Monday. Ready to meet my new students. I'm excited. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| From: Aaron
You're my favorite, too. My very best friend. I love you, Amy. I can't wait to see you tomorrow.
Received: Wed, Jul 30 2:50am | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Last night I was witness to one of the sweetest acts ever.
Aaron called me around 3, telling me he made the casserole his family was going to eat for Sunday dinner (they do the big family thing with grandmas and aunts and uncles). He said he made it and I had to come. I had JUST finished cleaning off the table from my own sunday dinner (I made pot roast and smashed potatoes with gravy mmmm). But I said "Ok. I may only taste it, but I'll be over".
So, I went over. It ended up being delicious, so I had 2 full servings PLUS lemon pie. So I was stuffed. We're talking thanksgiving stuffed. I had also been up late the night before playing Warcraft. It was freezing downstairs, and I went up to his room to lay under the blanket, then find some sweatpants to cover my legs. He ended up following me and getting on his lappy. So, I laid down and watched him stumble.
The next thing I know, he's covering me with a blanket, moving my computer off the bed, taking off my glasses, and kissed me on the forehead.
It was so ridiculously sweet. He told me he was going back downstairs and he'd tell everyone I was napping.
I dont know why I thought it was so sweet. But it was. :) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Aaron and I went down to the World Golf Village IMAX tonight to see Batman...
I don't get the hype. I didn't think the movie was all that great. It was a little better than Batman Begins, but not the amazing breakthrough film i've been reading about.
Yes, Heath Ledger was amazing... He was about the only thing. But I honestly think that the movie would have been a little less "monumental" if he was still alive...
I dunno... I just don't like Batman. I've never enjoyed a Batman movie... And these last two, his raspy voice KILLS me. I do a good impression... Maybe one day I'll do it for you... :)
But yeah... My review, don't waste your money to see it at the IMAX... There's $25 that could have gotten me new shoes... Probably not worth even the $9 at the regular theatre.... I'd wait till it was in the $1 redbox at mcdonalds.... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| Silly past me...
I was just going through some old LJ entries...
March 24, 2005... I complained of paying $20 to fill up half my tank. Gas was $2.24 a gallon...
Linds, you left me a comment that said it was horrible that gas was $2.05...
Ahhh the good old days. Yesterday my tank of gas was $69.50. And I have way worse gas mileage now. Oh well. I'm not complaining. Gas is still more expensive in Europe. And griping about gas is just lame. If it was really that bad, no one would be driving... But I still get stuck in traffic everyday.... "Bad economy" ?? Yeah. So gas is $$ and milk is almost $6 a gallon. Other than that, what's so bad? People are still streaming out of the shopping center up the road. All day, all night. I think people just have to find something to complain about...
In other news, I took the ESS subject area exam today. I passed (of course). But I seriously guessed on over half of it. They kept asking about rocks. We don't teach the rock unit in Duval county... So I was all like "Yay rocks!!"The important thing is I passed.
I also began playing World of Warcraft this week. After months and months of Aaron asking me too. I resisted. But I really like it. I'd like to try LOTRO, but, I can't run it on the mac. I'll have to reformat my Gateway if I want to play. Or borrow Aaron's old Lappy... We'll see... :) Yay games.
I don't think I ever wrote that Aaron got me a blue DS for my bday. I love it. Its so blue :)
I love him. I told my mom we aren't having sex. She was like "Seriously? I thought you were..." It was an awkward conversation... I still don't know whether or not she believes me. She should know me better... I was a stubborn 2 year old, why would I not be a stubborn 24 year old? :) If he wants me, he can wait till he marries me. ;)
I bought school supplies today. I'm a little bit excited. I'm gonna make each group a supply box. That way there's not 12 people asking for a pencil every 5 minutes. I'm excited. Maybe next week I'll start lesson planning :)
I'm going to WoW for a little bit before Aaron comes home... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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